Sometimes I feel that I am a failure of my own success when it comes to prep. I over think things, I make too many changes to nutrition and training and I am so paranoid about how I look - constantly fighting mirror demons.
Initially I decided no comps in 2016 but now I am not so sure. As with training and nutrition any decisions on comps has been handed over. If that person feels I am ready for stage again this year i will do it. Again selection of comp and federation will be taken from me.
Really happy with the changes in my body. My weight is less than my stage weight in November and I am consuming more than 500 calories now per day than what I was on. Good increases across all body parts.
This time there is no race to the finish line, it's all about consistency and response.
Already I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off me with not having control over my diet and training and perhaps this is a reason why I am responding so well.
It's also good to be back in the gym and enjoying training again.
