Managing multiple projects and working to deadlines – story
of my life. These past few months have
been crazy. Comp prep, uni work, a new
job, moving house, moving city, studying for Y3T, building Nemesis and a daily
200 mile round trip has really taken it’s toll on me.
Sometimes I do take on too much, but I never let it defeat
me, as we say at Nemesis ‘If it does not challenge you, it does not change
you’.
Every time I prep for a competition I learn something new
about my body. I have been very lucky
(always find a positive in every negative), that every time I have been close
to stepping up on stage something has happened to challenge me. On comp one, I was sitting my exams, the 2nd
comp I had some family personal issues to contend with, on my 3rd comp
I lost my job (twice) during prep and moved to a new city and for this comp I
had my final module essay for uni, involved in a car accident on peak week.
For those of you who have been around me over the past 2
weeks, you will know that I looked my best on Wednesday / Thursday this
week. I am devastated that on show day I
didn’t look as good as how I looked mid week.
Unfortunately issues with food caused by travelling and a journey that took longer than expected, resulted in some water and fluffiness issues.
For most people these things would make or break them and
really get them down, but for me it’s another entry in my ‘Lessons Learned’ log
book. If you make a mistake you learn
from it and you will certainly never make that mistake a 2nd time.
Lessons Learned
1. Never let others be in control of the journey
down, especialy people who do not understand prep and the challenges you have
faced to get there or simply just don’t get it.
2.
Never take a different route to what you have
pre planned (e.g. service stations, what is available at each service station).
3.
Never people please, when it comes to the final
week – your entitled to be a selfish b@st@rd after all the hard graft, and if
other’s cannot respect that then they are not a true friend.
4.
Never change up your food to accommodate travelling. Stick to what you know, and bring more food than you require.
5.
If you feel tired, sleep… sleep… sleep…
6.
ALWAYS be in control.
What’s next?
For those of you who follow me on instagram or fb you will
know that I have decided not to compete next year. I like to go on stage looking different with
good improvements each time. I really
want to do Nabba, but the Scottish girls who compete look amazing, and I just
don’t feel I am there yet to stand up on stage next to them, nor have the confidence yet to do an individual routine. I want to take my time, and make some good
improvements over a longer period. My
body also takes longer than other’s to shred in, and it’s something I just have
to accept.
I am also a huge fan of Kerrie Donaghy and have enjoyed her posts on fb and
instagram this past 12 months taking a different approach to nutrition and
training, and its made me realise that sometimes I just miss training hard and
enjoying my workouts without the pressure of comps or carb timming!
Despite the drama’s of not looking as good as I did on
Thursday I still came 1st in the British Finals for Ladies Figure
which am so chuffed about! UKUP - Fantastic
federation to be involved in with a brilliant bunch of girls who were so
friendly back stage.
Huge congrats to Lyndsay Gormley and Elaine Cooper who also
lifted trophies this weekend…. Lyndsay has amazing stage presence, with
fantastic improvements since I seen her in July and as always full body envy of
Elaine Cooper.
I also met Bobbi Evans who is sooooo lovely, I am very
confident I will be standing on stage with her in the future in figure, and
also huge shout out to llona Marijs who took 2nd place! You looked
amazing!
All the best in a few weeks time at Elite ladies!
I am so lucky to have such supportive friends…. Laura Robertson who is my number one fan, Sam
and Froggie who have been to almost all my comp’s – its so appreciative. James for prepping all my meals the past few
weeks due to my schedule and helping me pack up my house and putting up with my
high and low days.
As well as this a fantastic support network at David Lloyds
in Aberdeen from Chris, Hannah, Ben and David.
Huge thanks to David for helping me brush up my posing in the last week. I am so gutted I am going to be
leaving Lloyds its been an amazing 3.5 years.
I also want to thank my special ladies Marcia, Shelley,
Sarah, Laurie and Katrina… they have seen very little of me in the past 2 years, but
you know you have TRUE friends when you don’t see someone for months, pick up
the phone and it’s like no time has passed.
Lastly my GREATEST inspiration Sharon. She is my sister and best friend and knows me
inside out. She is a total star even
though she is the most moody person when dieting! Haha! She motivates me, pushes me, shouts at me if
I ‘graze’ and go over my macros, believes in me and fights my corner. It really annoys me when people say they
want to look like us but they don’t have the time. Everyone has the time if they want something
badly enough. Sharon gets up every
morning at 4am, to be at the gym for 5am before her son wakes up. She is then back by the time he wakes, feeds
him, gets him ready for nursery, works, comes home and his mum, wife and lady
of the house. NO EXCUSES.
She looked bloody amazing at her photo shoot, and is now prepping for
her triathlon. INSPIRATION RIGHT THERE.
I have already had people ask me what I was going to munch
on post comp. For those of you who know
me well, I don’t really binge eat… I do
have huge food hang ups because the bad stuff was what made me fat, miserable
and so unhappy with my life previously that I never every want to feel that way
again.
I tucked into some Tequila Ribs and Sweet Potato Wedges post
comp, with some B&J Mint Ice Cream and whipped cream, with a few chocolate
coins, and some lindt balls. Oh and a few glasses of my favourite bubbles. Today I had a latte, some reeces cups and a chicken pulled pork burger... thats as exciting as it gets! back to clean eating tomorrow, I actually feel so ill with even that small amount of badness.
I hope to maintain my current condition to Christmas before
starting another bulk.